Right then, this is a hard post to write…
No, I haven’t fallen off the face of the earth; and I apologize for the delay in posting. I have so much to tell you, but will save that up for future posts.
In the meantime: I think I was feeling a little blah after my show. I spent so much time first thinking and planning it, then making work and promoting it – that when it was all said and done I felt like I had nothing interesting to say. As well, I set up the light box and spent a lot of time photographing all of the pieces that needed to be photographed. That takes a lot a time, boy, does that take a lot of time.
Then, on the evening of Dec. 14th my Mom went into the hospital. I spoke to her on the 15th, as well as the Doctor. I spoke to the Doctor again on the 16th – her COPD had caught up with her and they were doing the usual things they do to get oxygen into her blood. At noon of the 17th the Doctor knew what they had tried wasn’t working and he told me “if you want to be here at the end” we’d better get on a plane. We dropped everything, found a kennel that could take the cats (luckily), cancelled my friend’s Christmas visit, and booked a flight for the next morning 7 am. Then, at about 7:30 pm our (EST) time on the 17th, the Doctor phoned back to say my Mom had died.
The good part of this story is that she had her faculties until the end, and was able to tell the Doctor that she didn’t want aggressive treatment; and she didn’t linger and suffer. We should all be so lucky to be in this position at the end of our lives. She told me about a year and a half ago “I’ve had a good run”. She also told me she was going to hold on until I finished school – I keep thinking about that.
It really wasn’t until last week that I started to feel back on track. Grief works it’s own way and on it’s own time. Even though I have been thinking about writing this post for the past two weeks, today is the first day I definitely decided to open wordpress. And yes, this has been very difficult to write.
I’ve been plugging away slowly on a commissioned piece, which I will show you – but not until after Valentine’s! As I said at the beginning – I have lots of things to talk about and plan on being back on track! As a hint – there is color involved and new pieces(!) of equipment!
I’ll be back soon.